The New Me ~ The Real Me

Well Hello my lovelies,

I think my last post was about me embracing this new energy that I was attracting to me. I distincly remember posting photos of the kinda style that used to be me until it wasn't and that I wanted to reclaim it. Well reclaim I have! I even piccies to prove it.

As you can see I have totally lush wallpaper... and yeah I guess I've embraced the feminine curves the Goddess gave me.

I have real issues with a couple of areas on my body... my arms!!! Goddess my arms... I am on the thinking boat on how I can tone them to perfection quickly. I read once that they are the easiest part of your body to tone, (Yeah right!!) I won't be defeated though! I will be 2 dress sizes smaller come my 23rd birthday on the 5th October!! Oh and the other areas of concern.... my hips...jeez I had to inherit the huge wide child-bearing hips the females have in this family!!! And of course like every female out there.... my stomach. I've got that under control though. Stability Ball is amazing.

It's wierd cause when I look at those photos of me I see the REAL ME, I kinda remember being that person, I like the look of that person, I just need to feel like that person...

I keep having second thoughts (Ok we musy be on like the hundredth second thought right now) about my teaching career. I know it's probably cold feet but apart from enjoying teaching, I really just enjoy the 13 weeks of holiday a year! Jeez that sounds soooo shallow. Not very Goddess-like of me I know but I need to vent these frustrations or they'll bug me.
So what would I do instead? Well Im trained in accounts (even though I don't enjoy it that much) It scares the hell out of me haha. I also have a recent Certificate in Business Studies (Level 4 qualification from Uni) and I covered Human Resources and Marketing in it. I really enjoyed Marketing and got my highest score on that. Could I be one of those high-powered Marketing Executive type women? I guess with the right opportunity and support from employers and colleagues Yes I could... but Can I find a job like that?
Well If you've read *The Secret* or anything like it, you'd be screaming at me that *If I can think it, then I can create it*.....

Maybe I will, But I'm not going to throw in the towel with teaching until I am absolutely sure 100%

Other News::

I'm really really enjoying my arting and writing. I haven't felt so alive in ages. Sure I'm having trouble finding time to fit things in and I'm still having my bad days but as I was writing my Morning Pages this morning I realised something. I started writing these almost 2 weeks ago, and when I first started I was moaning for 3 full pages about my life. This past week... A page of moans if that!!!! RESULT!!!! I literally don't have much to complain about in my life. Sure Im single (So wish I wasnt), Im on a weight loss regime, Im debating careers, and Im struggling slightly financially... but in all honesty who isn't??? And all of those Moans can be sorted and won't end my life. So, Miss Aurora needs to remember this when she feels sad and needs to stay the hell happy!

Life is what you make of it and I fully intend on making it MY DREAM LIFE.

Toodles xxx

Insect Free Witch

Merry Meet,

Well Ive had an eventful week! All is restored in Familyville with my lovely sister I'm very pleased to report.

My reiki has been going well as far as self healing is concerned. Tomorrow I'm going to perform a healing on my Mum which will be very nice to do. It will be good to compare how it goes with how it used to feel. My Sis, Pixie Allen was telling me how her hands feel hot when doing Reiki, and I've been experiencing this too. I remember when I was attuned to my level 1 and level 2, everytime I even thought of *Reiki* my hands would heat up. It's happening again people and it feels wonderful. I'm really looking forward to being able to attune others to the Celtic Reiki system, but I have no plans on sorting all that out any time yet. I'm far too busy with my writing and new hobby of arting, which you can read all about at my *Creative Witch Inside* blog).

Can I just say that if I never see another insect in my life, it would be too soon! We've been having attacks of huge black moths attacking us at night. I think my Dad used to call them "Bob-Howlers8 or *Night-Howlers*. Well whatever they are, I wish they'd kindly sod off and leave me in peace! Whenever we try to get the good old vacuum out to suck the little bleeder up it goes into hiding. No idea where it's bleeding gone. Searched everywhere for it.
I went to bed thinking about the man of my dreams.... and what happens at 3:40am this morning????? heh???? can you guess???? No!!! i'll you! That bleeding Moth decided to land on my mouth... LAND!!!!!!!! ON!!!!! MYYYYY!!!! MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!
Well I threw a huge hissy fit, grabbed the duvet covers, hid underneath them, almost suffocated myself to death, rummaged for my phone and text my mum. I swear those 10 minutes were the longest of my life! I couldn't breathe I had an asthma attack and I had a huge Panic Attack!! Wouldn't you if a rotten moth (sorry to anyone who loves these things) landed on your mouth all sweetness & light... bloody thing!

I just wanted to share that with you! I knew you'd be pleased! :-D

In other news (she says like a professional tv reporter),

I am sorting out my dress style... Im thinking back to when I was in a good relationship with a guy...Craig, and how I used to dress. When i dressed like that back then (I'll show you how in a min), I was soooooo happy and content with myself. So I'm going there again ladies!

This is now my new style! (See piccies below)

So what do you think??? Well I like lotsy!! As much as it pains me to say that Coleen rooney is now my style inspiration... she looks good in these pics! And to be honest, she was around when I was with craig so it kinda tricks my mind a little. Nah, anyway.

My Morning Pages are going really well, I'm really enjoying them (even if I am slightly sarcastic with myself on a morning). I almost thought I'd lost my Moldavite yesterday!! I know!! But I found her. I'm feeling she's a she you see. haha say that when your drunk! :-D

Well that's a little updatey for you.

What's been going on with you? I miss you all.... are you all even still reading? ?????? Pop by and say "Hi" so I know you're all still with me. xxxxxxx

Rora Loves ya, xxxx

Reiki & Creativity

Merry Meet all,

Today's blog is a happier one. I want to update you all whats happened in the past 24 hours. Well I had been carrying an almighty headache from what I don't know. I had suspicions that it was Full Moon Energy mixed with my Master Reiki Attunement and added to it my new Moldavite energy. Which by the way did I tell you I had new moldavite? No!! How naughty of me. Well, here it is. My Moldavite... Is it me or does it look like a frog?....Just me.... oh well ok.

Well over the past few nights i've used my reiki healing to do a bit of self healing. I've only invoked the energies of the symbols and didn't take any notice what they actually did. I wanted to play with them a little. Well, now I've worked with the Silver Fir, Birch and Heather energies of level 1, and have really been ushered forward in my life by the Sea energy that came to me as my Master Level. More on that sea energy soon.
Well, the Silver Fir energy worked really well on my base and solar plexus chakras, it didn't seem to want to know my sacral chakra. I didn't get as far as my heart chakra with it as I fell asleep. I researched in the morning through my manuals and found that it works with the two chakras that I mentioned it really worked with me on. (Sorry for this dodgy blogging, im in the middle of watching *Twilight*) This morning I woke up after being told by my reiki guide to invoke the heather energy. I followed this guidance and this morning found it was perfect for healing headaches and migraines. So I've been headache free all day, and my eyesight has been perfect.

Im excited about all the blog parties happening. Im up for the Gypsy Dreams party and of course the Practical Magic Blog Party. I already have a fantastic idea for both.

My morning pages are going well, seeing as im only 2 days into them. lol.

I've also set up a Sister Blog to this *Creative Witch Inside*, you can follow my University journey with Creative Writing and my Artisitc side there. i'd love it if you did join me there. This is all down to the Sea energy that I encountered during my attunement. It's the master energy for moving your life forward into unknown terroritories. I had no intention of focusing more on creative writing and art... yet here I am! It sure is one powerful energy.

Well, thats it for now. So tell me, what have you all been upto? I miss hearing from you all!

Aurora xxxx

Sacred Art

Merry Meet again,

I'm back! After having a day where I've literally thought about everything as at the moment I'm very wary of myself, I am here to have a little moan, well ok, more of a rant for what it is right!

Ok so let's say that someone out there has seriously caused a huge tidal wave today in my family. Yes a tidal wave, which right now can I say "How dare they!!" This tidal wave has caused me to turn into a complete and utter ass, and really rock the boat of the relationship that is between me and my sister! Ok it's not all this person's fault, I take responsibilty for not being at peace with who I am and really jumping the gun.

My extremley talented sister, Pixie Allen over at Red Pixie's Fantasy Art has worked so bloody hard with everything she's done. Everything. I've literally watched her art grow from the tiniest poppy seed into a whole Woodland filled with the most beautiful and fragrant flowers imaginable. Seriously she's freeking fab at what she does. So fab that I swear Dad's helping her art wise... In fact I know he's commented on her art from Spirit a few times. I know that he'd love her for everything she stands for! Well, I've been there when she's played with new art techniques, tried and failed (She never fails), and been overcome with enthusiasm for her art as much as she's felt like throwing the towel in. To be there everyday watching your sister grow like that as well as facing sheer shite in her life and I mean shite. She's so so strong! She might not think so sometimes, but she is! She's been a rock to me in my absolute darkest moments. She didn't have to be, but she chose to be!
Well anyway, as her art grew more and more beautiful with every brush stroke, we all began bugging her to sell them! I hope this idiot who sent the tidal wave over knows exactly how many times I (along with so many others) have had to convince this talented lady that YES YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH TO GO PROFESSIONAL!. Well, she finally did it! She was estatic with joy over this and has since grew a whole 'nother woodland full of beauty since. Some of this is still in the growing seed/germination stages but we know they will grow.
Now to find out that someone has copied her art that she came up with on her own, from her heart and soul, and has has the sheer audacity to set up shop like hers and sell it!!!! Well that PEEVS me off! It really does.
Well, how did this set me off on upsetting my sister? Well she told me via text about this...ok she told me in riddles but still, I shouldn't have assumed things. I thought she was on about me copying her! You see, I know she's been doing morning pages for a hile now and it was only this week that I enrolled on my Creative Writing course that covers morning pages. Until yesterday I had no idea what they were! I've also joined up to an art studion online that she's been a part of for ages. (Do you see where my paranoia came from?) And also we've both taken a huge step in a healing pathway, we've done our Reiki Master's and I came up with a art idea for my Reiki. Well I put 2+2 together and came up with 456!!! Seriously. My own insecurities as a person who's been on the recieving end of someone copying ever move I've made online with my *Faerie Whisperer* career got the better of me and I got seriously paranoid. (I now know that I need to sort these issues once and for all). I thought Id become the horrible person that can stoop so low as to take from another that what does not belong to them! So I removed her from my friends on facebook. (My sister that is) It caused a bit of a barny, and needless to say, we've both ended up hurt and extremley raw!

Now I hope she can forgive me, I really do, because I love her lots. I respect her, I admire her and she INSPIRES ME daily!

So I am saying, from the deepest ocean of my heart, Pixie, My lovely sister, I am so so so sorry for hurting you, I never meant to and I hope you can forgive me and that we can move forward from this. I love you so much.

And to the person who dared to set this tidal wave off, perhaps you didn't know it would cause this much heartache! But you need to look in the mirror and really think about what you see. Think about your morals and standards. Because I really don't know how you can sleep at night. To copy someone's hard work is the lowest of the low! I don't know who you are personally, but I have no respect for you. If you only knew what it feels like to have someone copy your work and try to clone you, you'd realise it is so painful to live with it. To be constantly hurt becuase someone has the cheek to take that which is not theres, to take your hard work and iterally trample on it, well.... I have no words for that. Your seemingly *innocent* actions have caused more trouble than you'll ever know today. I hate myself for allowing you to have done that! I'm to blame for my part. I should have been comfortable with who I am. I accept that, but you need to take responsibilty as well. Appologise and stop it!

All art is sacred, whether it is your own, a family member's, a friends, or even someone you merely know. That art is sacred whether it be music, art, writing, a design of some sort, or even the way you wear your clothes.

Also, one last word, Pixie, you said to me today "Nothing is Sacred". Well my lovely, you are sacred. Do you know why? Because there is only 1 of you and I wouldn't change you for the world. Im proud of who you are! Im proud for what you are! So, you see, something is sacred. YOU!!!! xxxxxxxxxx

Cleansing Update

Merry Meet,

I can honestly say that until today I have never felt void!

Let's rewind....

I woke up this morning after having a very bad migraine last night with my new *morning pages* journal next to me. The whole intention of sitting in bed writing my first ever morning page came down to earth with a heavy thump! Like literally. My cat, Magick Jumped right on my bladder with a thud! hehe He's so good at just being there at the right time to cause havoc! So *mummy* gets out of bed visits the ladies and then heads downstirs with her little dumpling in toe. Out comes the fine china and a tin of fresh tuna.... no not for my breakfast, this is Magick's breakfast.

So then I eventually make myself a cuppa, switch the tv on, grab my morning pages, snuggle up with a blanket on the sofa and begin writing.... and write I did. Babble was most of it, but it was good to actually vent them out. Can't say it was negative or even positive. It was neautral psycho-babble! (yeah, nothing new from this witch). All the time I have to admit Banana's in PyJamas were playing in the background!!

After this Mum came in from her cuppa outside and asked me how it went (the morning pages). So I told her what I knew about them and she was really interested and is even going to give them a go too! I've printed some info off for her on them and then I talked to her about my Creative writing course at Uni, she wants to have a nosey at those too. I told her she'll have to wait until the materials come haha. If you are interested in knowing exactly what my Uni Course intails you can have a look at the link here Creative Writing-A215

After this I decided to check out the Reiki Symbol I used last night before bed. i connected to the Birch tree and found that the energies really lapped it up at my Base and Solar Plexus Chakra, but more so at my base chakra. Sacral chakra just wasnt interested. I didn't manage to get to my heart chakra as I fell asleep. So I checked this morning which chakras the energy works best with. Yep, low and behold, the base and solar chakras. I was so chuffed about this. I had finally connected with the energy and let my expeirence guide me and not my manual.

I have had some fantastic art ideas to help me connect with myself and my dad. Im particularly excited about one that concerns my Reiki. I'll hopefully get it done today and post a pic for you later.

I don't really want to go into why I feel void, but let's just say I hope it hurries up and goes away. I don't like it and im not a fan of it.

Toodles,

Aurora xxx