Things I Love

Today I thought I'd do something slightly different with my blog post. Sometimes I think I totally over complicate my writing, especially here on my blog. I always think that there should be a clear cut and divinely intelligent plan and mission behind my blog post. I put way too much pressure on myself. I totally need to practice the art of self care and love and just... well love on all over myself and be totally uber gentle on my delicate soul.

My morning pages of late have become such a huge therapy tool for me, not that I need therapy... no hang on... yeah.. I so do need therapy... I need the ability to have the space held for me so that I can be vulnerable, scared, intrigued by life and totally innocent. Morning pages hold the space for me, and allow me to totally be vulnerable with myself. I'm not good at admitting that I don't know something, I have this ego inner child that believes she should be super human intelligent and know all there is to know, but we both know that this is totally unrealistic. I don't know even a tenth of what there is to know and I doubt I ever will. I mean I know I am a freaking genius - we all are, in our own YOUNIQUE way, but we have to admit defeat sometimes.

So here goes Day.... 7 :) Awesome!

I thought i'd take a activity from The Artists Way where I'm going to list things that I totally love... things that make my heart sing, my soul dance, my fingers tap, my lips curve into a gorgeous smile, and my eyes sparkle like a starry night o' diamonds!

1. Blogging - freestyle, just like this where I'm free to be me and have no expectations placed upon me
2. Books - gosh I lurve books with all my heart and soul - I think when I go to the world o' afterlife, I want books- all my fave books to go with me, so I can read them on my journey ;)
3. Writing - I am a writer, it's dancing, sizzling, and swirling in my blood
4. Desire Mapping - Heart freeing, soul believing, desire getting, pure desire mapping o' gorgeousness
5. Magick - my uber baby kitty
6. Comfy pillows - all squishy and comforting
7. PINK - sexy, smart, powerful, purring tempting PINK
8. Money - :D rolling on a bed full of money notes, swirling with abundant energy like a Goddess!
9. Diamonds - ahhh so pretty =)
10. Nickleback - oh yeah!
11. Art - Dreaming, possibility, creating, free, soul playing art
12. Angels - dreamy, uber guiding, helpful magickal angels
13. My Mr Handsome Paramedic - luscious, heart pounding, melting, hand holding, cuddling, Princess Lover, Sex God....mmmmm Me love lots :)
14. Words -  awesome, describing, soul speaking words
15. Friends - totally understanding, motivating, hilarious, weird o' purity, gosh I love you guys!
16. Mum - All that I am, All that I have, All that I do, All that I was.... YOU xxxx
17. Heels - skyscraper, painful, gorgeous dreamy powerful, sexy heels
18. Sexy Smart & Powerful Entrepreneuresses - Ladies o' awesome, you rock my world!
19. Effy Wild - New friend, boundary pushing, unapologetic goddess of awesomeness, motivating, believing,
20. Willingness - My willingness to start over, try again, get back up, wipe those teary eyes and try
21. Lisa Lister - My awesome rock star sista with uber goddess style, Pink lovin', totes super woman o' motivation, & Honest from the soul heart xxx Love you Miss L xxx

I could go on.... and on..... and on.... but 21 awesome things I love are totally rocking my positivity world right now.....

So what's rockin' your world right now? Please do tell!

Achievements & Moving Forward

Hello again,

I wanted to share with you some news that has excited me and made me feel so tremendously proud of myself. I also thought that it would make a welcome change from all my book reviews (More to come very soon), and my life coaching posts, for you to read something positive that offers you a peek inside my life.

Many of you will recall that around this time last year I began my preparations for studying Creative Writing at University. I actually found my journals from this time last year that are filled with my Morning Page entries. (Use my Search box on the blog to find out more about "Morning Pages"). Well, 9 months of study later, and lots of assignments later, I got my results through the post - I passed the course!!! :)

I am super chuffed that I passed as it really was a hard course in that it really pushed my writing boundaries. Some of it was really enjoyable, some was incredibly soul searching.  My most momentous assignment has to have been the Life Writing Assignment. I had to find something deep in my soul that was factual to write about that would evoke emotion, questions and a unique perspective. I searched my soul and gave myself therapy whilst writing my Life Writing piece, as I wrote about the terrible ordeal my Grandfather endured in Poland during the Second World War.

I recall writing it, and feeling so much emotion as I wrote each paragraph. When it was complete I re-read it and gave my Mum to read, we both cried. We have lived with the knowledge of what happened to my grandfather and his family, but to see it written down there in black and white is something totally mind blowing.

So, the passing of this course gives me more confidence in my writing ability, more avenues and interests within my writing - I have a serious passion for writing short extracts from stories and even writing short romantic stories filled with pure divine love, but it also gives me 60 Credit Points towards my degree!

The sense of achievement I felt when I read my result letter was out of this world. So I wanted to share that with you. Because as important as it is to talk about the dreams we have and how much we'd like to achieve them, and then we talk about how we can do all these wonderful things... I really wanted to share with you the end result of constantly visualizing success at University. Hopefully my success will inspire you to try to learn something new.

So where to next? 

For me, I am destined to write and I will carry on writing until the day I die! I was born to do it, I know that now, I really know it with all my heart. I will write my little heart out :) In fact I already am, so watch this space. 

I also am already finding material that I can read in preparation for my next course that is due to start in February. I find learning to be a really strong passion of mine, so I am most pleased that I will never stop learning - non of us will ever learn ALL there is to know. 

But we must try to fill our heart, souls and minds with what makes us joyful. 

I will end this blog post with a quote from A Course in Miracles; 

"Fear is not justified in any form.

Fear is deception. It attests that you have seen yourself as you could never be, and therefore look upon a world which is impossible. Not one thing in this world is true. It does not matter what the form in which it may appear. It witnesses but to your own illusions of yourself. Let us not be deceived today. We are the Sons of God. There is no fear in us, for we are each a part of Love Itself." ~ ACIM 

You create what you believe you will create!

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Finding the Artist Within

Well, I've been thinking recently about just how much I miss being creative.

I was brought up helping my Mum make bedding and curtains for our home using a sewing machine, watching Dad paint and sketch, and we were always doing something creative of some sort. I always had one of those games or kits at christmas or on my birthday like "Mosiac at home", "tapestry", "Cross stitch" and my favourite was "Ancient Eygptian Archaeology kit" where you had to did in the sand to find the pieces and then glue them together and restore it to a perfect standard by painting it. I loved it. I was always actively encouraged to express my creativity.

Lately my daily routine has become so uninspiring and ... well literally dreadful that I thought about all the things I miss. I miss beginning a cross stitch and seeing the picture develop before my eyes knowing that the picture has been created with tiny 'Kisses', I miss sketching and appreciating my talent...which is minimal I can assure you, I miss sewing and making homemade objects that add extra warmth and personality to the home. But most of all, I miss being able to get up on a morning feeling refreshed, ready to start my day with morning pages, before settling down to write for an hour or two. As a primary school Trainee Teacher, this is just impossible. I simply cannot do it. Which has left me feeling rather inadequate and a 'failure' to be honest. I LOVE writing, absolutely LOVE it, yet I'm finding that I have no time to do it. I know it's easy to say "MAKE TIME", if I could I would but we are all only presented with 24 hours in a day, 2 hours on a monring are spent waking up, smelling the coffee and getting ready for work, then Im at work for 6-7 hours, I come home end up planning for the next day's lessons, having something to eat, an hour to relax before showering and getting to bed. Then the day starts all over again. How sad is that? Like really, heart wrenching sad?

That's without attempting to work happily on my Faerie Whisperer career.... a whole different story.

Well I grabbed a couple of hours last night and wrote in a speedy fashion what I call a character sketch of Ariel (She's in my previous writings) and Im keen to develop her into an amazing young woman. And I actually attempted to sketch a goddess and today I've started to paint her up, but the skin tone is NOT going to plan... suprise suprise hey?

Well, I just wanted to share the sketch come painting with you, I call her Moon Goddess© very original I thought :P


Let me know what you think xxx

Taken from my Sister blog : The Creative Witch Inside

A busy Faerie Witch

I realise I haven't blogged on here since the 16th October and that really makes me sad. I remember creating this blog as a way of spreading my voice and then slowly I began to find less and less time to blog, so you became less and less able to know what's going on in my life. So do we ever 'make' time to continue working on things that have strong meaning for us? Can we 'make' time?
I believe we can, but I also know how hard it is to go to work, come home, have family time, work on your writing career, relax and then find time to update websites, social media sites, and then blog. Sometimes blogging is just too much hard work...I even think sometimes that I've forgotten how to blog so I may use some time this weekend to have a travel around your blogs and re-coach myself on how to blog!
I love my blog and know that I really should make time for it, and hopefully I will one day be able to manage my time more effectively...(I am learning...I'm slowly getting there...I promise).

So what have I been upto?

Well, I've taken on more responsibilty at work as a teacher, I'm now not only assisting in the classroom but am teaching the lower ability children Numeracy (maths) and Literacy (English) 4 days a week with no input from the main class teacher. I also teach the whole of year 4 RE which I enjoy, especially this term as we are learning about Christmas and I'm able to sprinkle in some info about Yule...I had to!

I've had another column published with *Magickal Media* where I am *The Faerie Witch Inside*, I mainly share my faerie wiccan beliefs through a type of diary entry...well, sort of. I write from the heart about what I feel readers will be interested in.

FAE Magazine, the Winter issue is out now, so make sure you Purchase a Copy to read my latest column all about the Snow Queen and how she can help you over the coming months.

I haven't been able to write my Morning Pages since going back to work, I simply haven't got time :( well I haven't organised my time correctly.)

I had an amazing experience with 11/11/11 yesterday, you can read all about it here

I'm also spending time writing my first ever book about faeries. It's exciting and rather cleansing as I write about my journey, it can also be raw at some times but I trust in the process.

Please come and join my Facebook Page if you haven't already, it's the one sure way that you can connect with me on a daily basis!

Right, I am off to read your blogs and learn how to write a blog properly again haha.

Lots of Faerie Blessings,
Aurora

The New Me ~ The Real Me

Well Hello my lovelies,

I think my last post was about me embracing this new energy that I was attracting to me. I distincly remember posting photos of the kinda style that used to be me until it wasn't and that I wanted to reclaim it. Well reclaim I have! I even piccies to prove it.

As you can see I have totally lush wallpaper... and yeah I guess I've embraced the feminine curves the Goddess gave me.

I have real issues with a couple of areas on my body... my arms!!! Goddess my arms... I am on the thinking boat on how I can tone them to perfection quickly. I read once that they are the easiest part of your body to tone, (Yeah right!!) I won't be defeated though! I will be 2 dress sizes smaller come my 23rd birthday on the 5th October!! Oh and the other areas of concern.... my hips...jeez I had to inherit the huge wide child-bearing hips the females have in this family!!! And of course like every female out there.... my stomach. I've got that under control though. Stability Ball is amazing.

It's wierd cause when I look at those photos of me I see the REAL ME, I kinda remember being that person, I like the look of that person, I just need to feel like that person...

I keep having second thoughts (Ok we musy be on like the hundredth second thought right now) about my teaching career. I know it's probably cold feet but apart from enjoying teaching, I really just enjoy the 13 weeks of holiday a year! Jeez that sounds soooo shallow. Not very Goddess-like of me I know but I need to vent these frustrations or they'll bug me.
So what would I do instead? Well Im trained in accounts (even though I don't enjoy it that much) It scares the hell out of me haha. I also have a recent Certificate in Business Studies (Level 4 qualification from Uni) and I covered Human Resources and Marketing in it. I really enjoyed Marketing and got my highest score on that. Could I be one of those high-powered Marketing Executive type women? I guess with the right opportunity and support from employers and colleagues Yes I could... but Can I find a job like that?
Well If you've read *The Secret* or anything like it, you'd be screaming at me that *If I can think it, then I can create it*.....

Maybe I will, But I'm not going to throw in the towel with teaching until I am absolutely sure 100%

Other News::

I'm really really enjoying my arting and writing. I haven't felt so alive in ages. Sure I'm having trouble finding time to fit things in and I'm still having my bad days but as I was writing my Morning Pages this morning I realised something. I started writing these almost 2 weeks ago, and when I first started I was moaning for 3 full pages about my life. This past week... A page of moans if that!!!! RESULT!!!! I literally don't have much to complain about in my life. Sure Im single (So wish I wasnt), Im on a weight loss regime, Im debating careers, and Im struggling slightly financially... but in all honesty who isn't??? And all of those Moans can be sorted and won't end my life. So, Miss Aurora needs to remember this when she feels sad and needs to stay the hell happy!

Life is what you make of it and I fully intend on making it MY DREAM LIFE.

Toodles xxx

Insect Free Witch

Merry Meet,

Well Ive had an eventful week! All is restored in Familyville with my lovely sister I'm very pleased to report.

My reiki has been going well as far as self healing is concerned. Tomorrow I'm going to perform a healing on my Mum which will be very nice to do. It will be good to compare how it goes with how it used to feel. My Sis, Pixie Allen was telling me how her hands feel hot when doing Reiki, and I've been experiencing this too. I remember when I was attuned to my level 1 and level 2, everytime I even thought of *Reiki* my hands would heat up. It's happening again people and it feels wonderful. I'm really looking forward to being able to attune others to the Celtic Reiki system, but I have no plans on sorting all that out any time yet. I'm far too busy with my writing and new hobby of arting, which you can read all about at my *Creative Witch Inside* blog).

Can I just say that if I never see another insect in my life, it would be too soon! We've been having attacks of huge black moths attacking us at night. I think my Dad used to call them "Bob-Howlers8 or *Night-Howlers*. Well whatever they are, I wish they'd kindly sod off and leave me in peace! Whenever we try to get the good old vacuum out to suck the little bleeder up it goes into hiding. No idea where it's bleeding gone. Searched everywhere for it.
I went to bed thinking about the man of my dreams.... and what happens at 3:40am this morning????? heh???? can you guess???? No!!! i'll you! That bleeding Moth decided to land on my mouth... LAND!!!!!!!! ON!!!!! MYYYYY!!!! MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!
Well I threw a huge hissy fit, grabbed the duvet covers, hid underneath them, almost suffocated myself to death, rummaged for my phone and text my mum. I swear those 10 minutes were the longest of my life! I couldn't breathe I had an asthma attack and I had a huge Panic Attack!! Wouldn't you if a rotten moth (sorry to anyone who loves these things) landed on your mouth all sweetness & light... bloody thing!

I just wanted to share that with you! I knew you'd be pleased! :-D

In other news (she says like a professional tv reporter),

I am sorting out my dress style... Im thinking back to when I was in a good relationship with a guy...Craig, and how I used to dress. When i dressed like that back then (I'll show you how in a min), I was soooooo happy and content with myself. So I'm going there again ladies!

This is now my new style! (See piccies below)

So what do you think??? Well I like lotsy!! As much as it pains me to say that Coleen rooney is now my style inspiration... she looks good in these pics! And to be honest, she was around when I was with craig so it kinda tricks my mind a little. Nah, anyway.

My Morning Pages are going really well, I'm really enjoying them (even if I am slightly sarcastic with myself on a morning). I almost thought I'd lost my Moldavite yesterday!! I know!! But I found her. I'm feeling she's a she you see. haha say that when your drunk! :-D

Well that's a little updatey for you.

What's been going on with you? I miss you all.... are you all even still reading? ?????? Pop by and say "Hi" so I know you're all still with me. xxxxxxx

Rora Loves ya, xxxx

Sacred Art

Merry Meet again,

I'm back! After having a day where I've literally thought about everything as at the moment I'm very wary of myself, I am here to have a little moan, well ok, more of a rant for what it is right!

Ok so let's say that someone out there has seriously caused a huge tidal wave today in my family. Yes a tidal wave, which right now can I say "How dare they!!" This tidal wave has caused me to turn into a complete and utter ass, and really rock the boat of the relationship that is between me and my sister! Ok it's not all this person's fault, I take responsibilty for not being at peace with who I am and really jumping the gun.

My extremley talented sister, Pixie Allen over at Red Pixie's Fantasy Art has worked so bloody hard with everything she's done. Everything. I've literally watched her art grow from the tiniest poppy seed into a whole Woodland filled with the most beautiful and fragrant flowers imaginable. Seriously she's freeking fab at what she does. So fab that I swear Dad's helping her art wise... In fact I know he's commented on her art from Spirit a few times. I know that he'd love her for everything she stands for! Well, I've been there when she's played with new art techniques, tried and failed (She never fails), and been overcome with enthusiasm for her art as much as she's felt like throwing the towel in. To be there everyday watching your sister grow like that as well as facing sheer shite in her life and I mean shite. She's so so strong! She might not think so sometimes, but she is! She's been a rock to me in my absolute darkest moments. She didn't have to be, but she chose to be!
Well anyway, as her art grew more and more beautiful with every brush stroke, we all began bugging her to sell them! I hope this idiot who sent the tidal wave over knows exactly how many times I (along with so many others) have had to convince this talented lady that YES YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH TO GO PROFESSIONAL!. Well, she finally did it! She was estatic with joy over this and has since grew a whole 'nother woodland full of beauty since. Some of this is still in the growing seed/germination stages but we know they will grow.
Now to find out that someone has copied her art that she came up with on her own, from her heart and soul, and has has the sheer audacity to set up shop like hers and sell it!!!! Well that PEEVS me off! It really does.
Well, how did this set me off on upsetting my sister? Well she told me via text about this...ok she told me in riddles but still, I shouldn't have assumed things. I thought she was on about me copying her! You see, I know she's been doing morning pages for a hile now and it was only this week that I enrolled on my Creative Writing course that covers morning pages. Until yesterday I had no idea what they were! I've also joined up to an art studion online that she's been a part of for ages. (Do you see where my paranoia came from?) And also we've both taken a huge step in a healing pathway, we've done our Reiki Master's and I came up with a art idea for my Reiki. Well I put 2+2 together and came up with 456!!! Seriously. My own insecurities as a person who's been on the recieving end of someone copying ever move I've made online with my *Faerie Whisperer* career got the better of me and I got seriously paranoid. (I now know that I need to sort these issues once and for all). I thought Id become the horrible person that can stoop so low as to take from another that what does not belong to them! So I removed her from my friends on facebook. (My sister that is) It caused a bit of a barny, and needless to say, we've both ended up hurt and extremley raw!

Now I hope she can forgive me, I really do, because I love her lots. I respect her, I admire her and she INSPIRES ME daily!

So I am saying, from the deepest ocean of my heart, Pixie, My lovely sister, I am so so so sorry for hurting you, I never meant to and I hope you can forgive me and that we can move forward from this. I love you so much.

And to the person who dared to set this tidal wave off, perhaps you didn't know it would cause this much heartache! But you need to look in the mirror and really think about what you see. Think about your morals and standards. Because I really don't know how you can sleep at night. To copy someone's hard work is the lowest of the low! I don't know who you are personally, but I have no respect for you. If you only knew what it feels like to have someone copy your work and try to clone you, you'd realise it is so painful to live with it. To be constantly hurt becuase someone has the cheek to take that which is not theres, to take your hard work and iterally trample on it, well.... I have no words for that. Your seemingly *innocent* actions have caused more trouble than you'll ever know today. I hate myself for allowing you to have done that! I'm to blame for my part. I should have been comfortable with who I am. I accept that, but you need to take responsibilty as well. Appologise and stop it!

All art is sacred, whether it is your own, a family member's, a friends, or even someone you merely know. That art is sacred whether it be music, art, writing, a design of some sort, or even the way you wear your clothes.

Also, one last word, Pixie, you said to me today "Nothing is Sacred". Well my lovely, you are sacred. Do you know why? Because there is only 1 of you and I wouldn't change you for the world. Im proud of who you are! Im proud for what you are! So, you see, something is sacred. YOU!!!! xxxxxxxxxx

Cleansing Update

Merry Meet,

I can honestly say that until today I have never felt void!

Let's rewind....

I woke up this morning after having a very bad migraine last night with my new *morning pages* journal next to me. The whole intention of sitting in bed writing my first ever morning page came down to earth with a heavy thump! Like literally. My cat, Magick Jumped right on my bladder with a thud! hehe He's so good at just being there at the right time to cause havoc! So *mummy* gets out of bed visits the ladies and then heads downstirs with her little dumpling in toe. Out comes the fine china and a tin of fresh tuna.... no not for my breakfast, this is Magick's breakfast.

So then I eventually make myself a cuppa, switch the tv on, grab my morning pages, snuggle up with a blanket on the sofa and begin writing.... and write I did. Babble was most of it, but it was good to actually vent them out. Can't say it was negative or even positive. It was neautral psycho-babble! (yeah, nothing new from this witch). All the time I have to admit Banana's in PyJamas were playing in the background!!

After this Mum came in from her cuppa outside and asked me how it went (the morning pages). So I told her what I knew about them and she was really interested and is even going to give them a go too! I've printed some info off for her on them and then I talked to her about my Creative writing course at Uni, she wants to have a nosey at those too. I told her she'll have to wait until the materials come haha. If you are interested in knowing exactly what my Uni Course intails you can have a look at the link here Creative Writing-A215

After this I decided to check out the Reiki Symbol I used last night before bed. i connected to the Birch tree and found that the energies really lapped it up at my Base and Solar Plexus Chakra, but more so at my base chakra. Sacral chakra just wasnt interested. I didn't manage to get to my heart chakra as I fell asleep. So I checked this morning which chakras the energy works best with. Yep, low and behold, the base and solar chakras. I was so chuffed about this. I had finally connected with the energy and let my expeirence guide me and not my manual.

I have had some fantastic art ideas to help me connect with myself and my dad. Im particularly excited about one that concerns my Reiki. I'll hopefully get it done today and post a pic for you later.

I don't really want to go into why I feel void, but let's just say I hope it hurries up and goes away. I don't like it and im not a fan of it.

Toodles,

Aurora xxx